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Name: Aeria Age/DoB: 14 / 13th September 1991 Favourite City: London, UK Hobbies: Drawing, writing, graphic-designing (making banners and icons), watching anime, reading manga, talking with friends, practising with knives. Likes: Books, tea, blades, the moon, black, wings, white, crosses, victorian things, Tim Burton, mythology, archaeology, Art, music, sophistication, silence, anime, manga, japanese artwork, crumbling houses, old houses, abandoned houses, cats, ravens. Dislikes: Self-centered people, people who judge others by their appearance, fake friends, bright colours, pink, bossy people, people who think they're superior to others, the smell of boiled chicken, discos. Best Friends:-> Kris-onee-chan ( Trista ) -> Saki/Rosette -> Nessi -> Yuna Aspiring: writer and artist
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
 Mood: Upset / Tired / Nostalgic~Romantic
Reason: Can't seem to do anything right nowadays / School and tests / ...Aren't I always?
I'm just posting because I haven't in a long time. It's not like I feel like it, lately I haven't felt like anything, but... I don't want this to fall into inactivity. I've been working a bit in photoshop lately, I made a CD cover "if my poems were songs".
Full Cover ( front, back, side )That is the result. I've also made banners for Lhy and Saki's forums. Lhy used it, Saki didn't... I don't care, anyway.
I want to write a story, but I don't feel as enthusiastic about it as I did last night when I wrote the prologue. I can't stick with an idea. It sucks, but I don't have the talent anyway so why bother? I write for fun...
I can't draw lately.
My hand sucks.
Everything I made in the last few days looks like plain-out crap. I can't draw anymore, I can't write anymore so I have no idea what I can do. I suck...
Got two tests today and one yesterday. Maths, Chemistry and French. I got Bs in all of them. Woohoo, I may not have Cs this term if the National Exams and Global Tests turn out fine. Meh... all I have to do is study. Easy to say...
I feel... depressed today.
I don't want to do anything.
I'm sad and... broken, somewhat.
Sorry...
.:: A e r i a ::.
Posted at 21:58 by Aeria_KG
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Saturday, April 29, 2006
 Mood: Sick / Tired / Scared / Obsessed / Romantic-Sad
Reason: Allergies / Tiring day / My blood-test resulsts / Hiroki Aiba, Yukimura xD; / My imagination ^^;
Konbanwa, everyone. I'm not going to type much today because it's rather late and I'm tired, even if I am staying up for a while... Nessi wants to read the post once I finish typing it and she's really sleepy. I'm not sleepy, just tired and my eyes hurt but that's because of the allergies.
Nothing much happened today, found some extra Hiroki Aiba pictures in the folder Arche sent me. She's a sweetheart ^-^ I was happy I found some good images, I'm really becoming a true fan of Hiroki Aiba, too bad it's so hard to find stuff about him ;-; Oh well...
Now I'm obsessed with Yukimura-kun again... Well, I always were, weren't I? The musicals, the manga, his songs... DOKI-DOKI SURU! X3
I want more Princess Princess episodes, can't wait for them to come out! Episode 4 is exactly what I've been waiting for - Yuujirou-kun's past. I really want to know. Also, downloading 4th episodes of Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu and Soul Link... Though this doesn't matter much. ^^;
Today I got my blood-test results back (well, mom picked them up). I was really glad because everything was great and perfect, even my colestherol (which is strange for someone fat like me x3)... Well, until I got to the Allergies page.
An average person has less than 120 IGEs. I, strangely, have 800. Clearly speaking, I should be in a hospital bed or wearing a surgeon's mask, because it means I'm way too vulnerable to my allergies to be slightly healthy. But what worries me the most isn't the number (well, it is, but side-by-side with it)... it's what I'm allergic to. If I were allergic to some kind of food, I'd be okay, ne? Just cutting with it and I'd be fine... But no. All my allergies are breathing-related. Figuratively speaking, if I inhale something I'm especially vulnerable to, I can die and stuff. This explains how sometimes I just stop breathing for a while, or I start to lack air... Or that sharp, horrible pain in my chest (I thought it was my heart, it's my lungs after all). I guess it's explained now... but just because it's explained, it doesn't mean I can stop being afraid of it happening again. Since yesterday afternoon, I've been crying and my eyes hurt a lot... My nose keeps running too, I can't stay five minutes without sneezing... This is really uncomfortable, I'm sure I walked by something I shouldn't have. I wish I'd have food allergies, not this ;-;"
I really need to start writing again, but not now. I have four tests to study for, not to mention the global exams coming soon, as well as the rest of the tests! I hate 9th grade... *sighs*
Today I also went out for lunch with Nessi and Inês. It was fun ^-^ I love them very much. *hugs Nessi and Inês*. Lets go out for lunch more often, ne? x3
School was boring, very tiring though.
I haven't got anything else to write...
Sorry for the short post.
Mata ne, minna-san!
.:: A e r i a ::.
Posted at 01:24 by Aeria_KG
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006
 Mood: Worried / Very Tired / Nervous / Slightly Sad
Reason: Saki... / I haven't stopped all day x.x / All those tests starting Tuesday / I hate it...
Hello, minna-san! I'm trying to post a lot right now because starting next week I have tests every day. First History on Tues., French on Weds and Chemistry on Thurs., I think. Today we had a Mathematics test. Actually, I think it went so-so. Not as bad as it usually goes, which in itself is already good! I was extremely nervous about this test and I'm glad I actually studied (even though I didn't practise any exercises, I only read the theory... =D;).
I'm really enjoying the Role-Plays I am posting in, in Lhy's forum Fantasy Dream. They're very nice, I used to be in three more of them but they post so quickly I get lost and stop posting! I'm still posting in two of them, though, the ones I like most (one of the other three was also one of those I like most but it was just impossible ^^;).
I'm very worried about Saki-chan. She is feeling really horrible right now, because of the way people treat her, especially her stupid brother. He's so mean to her, how could he treat her like that? The worst part is that she can't tell her mother... I'm very worried about her and I feel ghastly because I can't help her in any way, I feel useless. I want her to smile and have fun and be happy, not all the time because that's impossible, but at least most of it. She's been through a lot and still is going through it. Saki-chan really needs some support right now, but I'm sad because I can't give it to her. I'm a lousy friend, I can't believe how she hates herself when I admire her so much...
Oh well ._.; I'm very tired today. After school, Inês, Yuna, Catarina, Neves and Tiago came over so we could take the pictures for our school project. Oh God, how we laughed! The photos turned out great, I'll have to upload them when we finish taking them tomorrow. Tiago is so fun to photograph and Catarina Macedo is an awesome model. I hope I can take some good pictures of Yuna, Inês and Neves tomorrow... ^^; Oh God, but then I'll have to edit the pictures in Photoshop and make them all into a book and all that... Christ. T_T; Plus, I'm not a straight-A student at all, so this will clash with my grades and I really want to have good enough grades to get into the school I want. It's kind of unfair, I drew the clothes, I took the pictures, they came to MY house... All they did was get the clothes and don't go on saying that's probably hard because I had to find my own too!
I just think it's unfair, but I can't really do anything about it. I'm always like this, I can't say no to anyone or anything... I hate it.
Hopefully I'll start my manga in mid-June, before the National Exams and after school is over. Yesterday it was Kris-chan's birthday! HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN, SIS! *HUGS* ^_^ I made her a present but it was very crappy TT; I suck at drawing... She liked it though. I can't see how. At least I tried, ne? ^^;
I've recently started reading Jane Austen's Sense and Sensibility. She is my favourite writer, though reading her books kind of ends up hurting me... It doesn't matter because I like them, so I won't stop reading them just because they make me cry. I really like Elinor, I don't like Marianne much but... I can surely say that Elinor is more like me, though on the inside I am exactly like Marianne. I have conflicting personalities... *laughs*
Today, tennis lesson was fun at least. It was very tiring and very hard, and I wasn't feeling well because of the heat. I had to stop a few times because I couldn't see anything, everything was blurry and I was too dizzy to walk straight up, but hopefully no one noticed. I hope it doesn't happen again tomorrow, I'm afraid I might faint like that one time in the bathtub... *shivers*. The last part of the class was fun, though xD Along with the younger teacher in the tennis club, I had lots of fun throwing balls at my teacher. It was very funny, we didn't hurt him (I hope) and he even laughed and tried to hit us too, so it was good, clean fun.
I'm happy because finally I have the complete Opening of the anime Soul Link. The song is called Screaming by Miyuki Hashimoto, one of my favourite singers even though she doesn't have an actual album yet. The complete version of 19sai by Suga Shikao and Bouken Desho Desho? by Hirano Aya are also out right now. If you really want them, feel free to say so! You can e-mail me or just post a comment on the post or tagboard, but please leave your e-mail or website, or I won't be able to contact you... ^^;
I've been watching an anime called Princess Princess. I thought I was going to dislike it a lot because of it having two main bishounen which is an automatic recipe for shounen-ai. And it is classified as shoune-ai, you know, so I had all the more reasons to hate it. But it turns out I loved it! I love the story, it's unusual and funny, though nothing really out-of-the-ordinary (like magic and beasts and stuff like that, which I also love mind you but it would look weird here) and I really love Shihodani Yuujirou (yes, the blonde guy x'D I have a pattern!). Though it's not just the appearance, I adore his personality and I wish I could ever meet someone like him... TT; This world sucks. *kicks Earth*
I want to design new outfits ^_^ I already have loads of ideas! I want a maid outfit, a nurse outfit, uniforms and lots of stylish black stuff xD Yep, I'm predictable. Though even though I am predictable and everyone thinks I'm so cheerful and happy and funny and all that...
I can't help feeling empty.
You can skip this paragraph if you want ^^; I don't want people to read it if they don't want to... I'm writing it because I can't really explain it to people. In fact, I can't really explain it but it just happened today. I know I sound like I'm playing the victim especially now that Saki feels so bad, she has all the right to think that I'm just wanting attention but I'm not. Actually, right now, I don't want any attention.
I'm sick of people talking to me about their boyfriends to boast about them. Like "We're so happy" and all that crap. And I'm also sick of people hiding things from me. I'm sick of it! Why doesn't everyone just understand that what I like to do the most is listen to people?! It's so frustrating! How they tell everyone everything and when it comes to me they don't say a word about most things! What is it?! Am I too childish? Am I just a spoiled child with a perfect life who can't understand people's problems? Okay, fine, so what, I am! Think what you will of me, but that doesn't erase the fact that I'm mad, angry and horribly frustrated.
And it's not just that... I'm starting to feel really desperate.
I'm sick of being lonely. I'm sick of being this way! I can't stand it anymore... Kaoru-chan has been amazing about it, she helps me so much and tries to make me see the truth that I should see but I just can't. I end up crying myself to sleep every night, as if the same tape keeps playing over and over again. Life is always the same, it's always everything the same, same people, same places, same things to do, same routine... I can't stand it anymore. I need change, I need something refreshing, something to come into my life and take me by surprise...
I'm being selfish. I'm sorry. But the biggest problem is still my heart. It hurts too much to stand... I can't believe how someone so seriously obsessed with old-fashioned romance and who spends every minute of her day daydreaming about her first kiss and sometimes even her wedding, her first date, her first romantic ball... How could someone who is so obsessed with a fairytale romance be like me?! It's too much! I'm ugly, fat, horrible, stupid, lazy, I don't have any talents, I'm not nice, polite, honest, I'm not patient or sensitive, I'm not intelligent, I'm not pleasant or friendly... I'm just the way I am. I wish I was pretty or all those things I'm not. Maybe then I could find the one I love.
But I can't just be reborn someone completely different... I wish I could.
I really want to die sometimes. I know, I know, it's completely selfish and I sound like a spoilt crybaby but I'm not. I'm just too obsessed with something that can never come my way. Not with the one I've loved since I was 10, for four years I've loved someone from my dreams and I will never find him - even if I do, he'd never like me. Because... I'm a hundred-thousand times below him. I'm none of the things he is and I'm all the things anyone would wish not to be.
I hate this. I hate myself.
I want to die for all the selfish reasons I can think of. So what? Who cares besides me? I have wonderful friends I love and who worry about me but still... I can't shake this feeling that I'm empty and it's useless to stay here, that I'll never be truly happy (and no, I don't mean completely happiness, that doesn't exist. It's a human's fate to always have one or two problems).
I hate it... I want to leave everything.
And so, I finish this post. I'm sorry for sounding so depressive. Kill me for being a crybaby or a spoilt child but life's like this and there's nothing we can really do about it.
Jaa ne, minna-san.
.:: A e r i a ::.
Posted at 22:55 by Aeria_KG
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Mood: Bored / Tired / Worried
Reason: Nothing to do / It's late / Haven't got a gift for her yet.
Konnichiwa, minna-san. I'm using another icon of Hiroki Aiba though the man is quite hard to chase! I simply cannot find icons of him. Or photos, damn it! He's cute, he dresses well and he plays Fuji in TeniMyu (after Kimeru played him in DreamLive, I guess ). Well, I can't really complain, since having three pictures is good enough =D;
About the post title, it's stupid because it's the first day in like, four days that it didn't rain =D;
I'm only posting because I have nothing else to do. My life isn't that exciting as to need me posting every single day saying "OMG TODAY WAS SO AWESOME" and... stuff. Nothing very relevant happened. We had school and stuff, I had an A in my Art assignment for last term. I got mad at Nessi in the afternoon for being mean about how she talked to me. I was really sad because of what she said but then she found a nice way of apologizing ^-^ *hugs her drawing and Nessi as well* She's really talented in drawing chibi Bakuras xD;
Also, something funny happened during Geography class. Since in the numerology thing, my number is 4 and it means The Emperor... well, technically Sanada is the Emperor ( it's how they call him in the manga and... anime if I'm not mistaken? ). So the reason I'm always standing up for him and other things isn't because I like him but because in a way, we're the same! Okay, maybe I can't really say I don't like him but I'm sure it's not on the same level as my Yukimura and my Yuushi and my Fuji... and I've almost been forgetting about Kajimoto lately! Anyway, concerning Yukimura-kun (<3), somehow I said UKEmura instead of Yukimura. Because of the Uke and Seme concepts, Nessi keeps teasing me with it xD; Though I have to admit it's amusing.
A while ago I went to the cinema with some classmates (including Nessi) and I watched Scary Movie 4. It so didn't let me down! It was really loads of fun. The iPod part cracked me up big time xD; And the kid (supposedly) from The Grudge had Gaara's makeup! Though the best parts were the ones mocking The Village... at least in my opinion. Anyone who had seen the movie would just laugh themselves to tears watching those parts.
Though before the movie, we went to eat at Pans & Co., which is my second-favourite place to eat when in a hurry. The first one would be a natural food restaurant that sadly that mall didn't have. Anyway, the cue for the tickets was huge! I was glad it didn't take as much as I thought it would until it was our turn... But Sara was late! We were a bit mad at her, and we waited for a long time for her, but then the movie was about to start so we gave up. We gave the man our tickets and went into the hallway with all the doors to the cinema rooms. Well, my friends went ahead but I just stood there, looking at the cue, expecting to see Sara arrive...
Then suddenly someone ran into me, and when I turned, we both said "I'm sorry!" at the same time. Then we laughed, and went on the whole "No, no it's my fault!" routine. It was a guy, about 30 years old though he reminded me of someone. His hair was cute and I want his glasses o.o;
Pedro Granger, a very known portuguese actor was eating at Pans when we were in the cue for the tickets. He looks so much cuter in real life than in TV. Though he looked a bit... 'rustic' eating his fries xD; And he talked with his mouth full. Though it wasn't disgusting, t'was actually kind of cute... Oh well, actors have a talent for this kind of thing. xD
I've finally made a decision to start a comic or a manga, but with my personal style. I don't want to copy anyone's style, that would be almost the same as stealing the author's identity. With time, I'll find the courage and patience to actually start drawing it and I still need to come up with a decent story... though I want Saki, Nessi and Kris to be in it at least. I'll probably put Kaoru and Arche too. ^^ All I know is that it's going to start at a regular highschool... I really wish I can improve my art until I actually start it. God knows how long it will be until I have time! Wednesday I have a test already (Maths) and it's all downhill from there. *sigh* I hate 9th grade!
At least now I'm understanding everything from classes and actually studying for the tests. I'm not as dumb as I thought, I'm just lazy. But I have to thank Nessi for that ^-^ She's an awesome friend ;-; in every aspect of the word.
I don't know what to write anymore... I want to start writing the script for the manga. ^^
Thank you for visiting my blog! =3
Jaa ne!
.:: A e r i a
Posted at 01:26 by Aeria_KG
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Sunday, April 23, 2006
Mood: Tired/Happy/Worried
Reason: Went to bed late last night... / I get along quite well with them now and they're nice ^-^ / Things might change because of it.
Hello again, everyone! I know I haven't posted in a long time but lately I just don't feel like it. Plus, I won't post much in the next few weeks because of National Exams, not to mention the hideous tests we have to take for each subject including everything we've learned the whole year. 9th grade sucks. I can't wait to go to 10th grade and leave this school...
A lot of things have been happening lately. I've been reading a manga called Ouran High School Host Club or Ouran Koukou Host Club, Ouran can also be spelled as Ohran, by the way. It's hylarious and cute, and I totally adore Kyoya <3 Nessi likes Tamaki... so predictable! I've also been watching Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu ( The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi ), Soul Link, Karin (I've known this anime for a while but I stopped downloading the episodes. Now I'm downloading them again.) and Ouran High School Host Club. I was fairly disappointed with the xxxHOLiC anime, I prefer the manga 1000 times. Though I absolutely loved the opening song, 19sai by Suga Shikao, one of my favourite japanese singers.
Yesterday, I went to Colombo with my friends from Ty-Kamara: Arche, Kaoru, Sakura, Kawatta, Sayo, Phoenix, Lyna, KoD and also Nessi and Arcanis. It was incredibly fun and I can say for sure it was one of the best days ever! I can barely wait to go with them again. We spent the afternoon in Funcenter then went to eat some crépes with ice cream, chocolate sauce... I'm especially happy because I finally got to know them all better, since before I was very afraid of becoming close to them... I can't really explain why. I'm very glad I became their friend now, because they're great people. Kaoru-chan is really sweet, Arche is too... Phoenix and Kawatta are so cute together, and Sayo is a very cool person... Lyna is an amazing girl and KoD's very quiet but nice. I'm glad I'm their friend, they're nice, sweet and they make me laugh. Kaoru and Arche say they like me, which makes me very happy - I was honestly afraid I would be disliked.
I'm now downloading a manga I've been wanting to check out for a while now, Alice 19th. I already have a few volumes but haven't unzipped them yet. I wonder if it's any good. Also, I've been obsessing over an anime called Peace Maker Kurogane. I'm completely obsessed with Souji Okita, and onee-chama likes Hijikata. Another predictable woman! Well, I guess I'm not very different from her and Nessi, since they always guess who I'm going to like too. The opening song is great, and the ending makes me laugh. I've also finished watching Violinist of Hameln... I watched 25 episodes from Friday to Saturday (last week)! Talk about addiction. The soundtrack is great, it's composed mostly by classical music, and I'm in love with the second ending song. Though I cried in the last episode, how could it end like that? Poor Flute... poor Hameln! Well, at least my Lute came back to the palace. He's so sweet... He was creepy when he was being posessed by Bass...
Yesterday night I had loads of fun talking to Arche and Kaoru. ^-^ We had such hylarious conversations xD Kaoru is a sweetheart and Arche is an awesome person. I still laugh with the whole prison guard thing, and the convict-condoms...
I don't want to go to school tomorrow, such a great weekend couldn't just go by so fast... at least Tuesday's a holiday, and it's also Kris-chan's birthday! I hope I have the time to make her a beautiful gift ^-^ After all, she's my darling, beloved onee-chan <3
Arche made me like Hiroki Aiba... It's not my fault he's cute! xD And she also brought back my thing for Hyde... the japanese singer, ex-member of L'arc~En~Ciel.
I haven't got much else to write, I hope you all like the changes I made to the blog ^-^ Tomorrow, Saki and Lhy have a very hard test... I wish them loads of good luck, since I heard it's a hard subject x_x Ganbatte, mommy and auntie!
It's all for now ^-^
Mata ne!
.:: A e r i a
Posted at 19:23 by Aeria_KG
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